Wow a lot has happened

What in the world is going on? Everything is in front of me but passing me by at the same time. I need to find that balance I need to find that something. There is a missing piece. I am looking for it.

I am not looking for the missing piece that will be here today and gone tomorrow... I am looking for something dedicated to me. This life I am living has not allowed me to find that which I am looking for. Should I change the kindness of my heart. The warmth of my friendship? Have I become a doormat to the world?

I AM NOT A FUCKING DOORMAT!!!

Now that's off my chest I feel a little better.

Where Have I Been

I have been living LIFE!!!!

Yes with my quasi family of friends.

New Thought

"I know all the nice words people use to tell me to go the hell in the nicest ways. I prefer hearing the direct method."

Sharing

Why do I feel hungry when I am full? Why do i thirst for something when I am quenched? I am seeking somehting. Perhaps I am seeking too hard. I am looking for something that is right in front of me, around me, and even inside of me. The interesting thing is we all have it. It's just in how it is used. Some for good some for evil some for radical ambition.

I just want to share it with someone.

Intro

Looking out in frustration, I see the people move about. I see them in teh malls, the supermarkets and theathers. Together mingling in almost a harmony. How could anyone interject? Could it be one person to disrupt this sea of people? These people of different races, religions and creeds gathered in masses... . But I am just one. I am just one person who feels lonely among the thousands.. I am not seen. I am not heard> But I am here to observe. The question them becomes I am the spectator or a participant in life?


This is pretty much the story of my life. Am I the spectator or a participant. This is something I have always asked myself. Is it part of myself consciousness or non existent? Nevertheless this is where I am. Filled with useless knowledge ready to explode with success. This is what goes through my mind as an Unhyphenated American!