Wow a lot has happened

What in the world is going on? Everything is in front of me but passing me by at the same time. I need to find that balance I need to find that something. There is a missing piece. I am looking for it.

I am not looking for the missing piece that will be here today and gone tomorrow... I am looking for something dedicated to me. This life I am living has not allowed me to find that which I am looking for. Should I change the kindness of my heart. The warmth of my friendship? Have I become a doormat to the world?

I AM NOT A FUCKING DOORMAT!!!

Now that's off my chest I feel a little better.